Whatever you do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius and power and magic in it.
– Johann Wolfgang Von Goethe
A new found sense of urgency has been haunting me daily these past couple of weeks. Trying to find the right step and decide the most important thing for the day. This way I can focus 80% of my days energy on that topic/task, while using the other 20% to cover the rest of the days motions. Basically making sure the right things are high priority and get the required attention. All of a sudden finding extra hrs in a day is becoming difficult. I find myself staying up just as late as I would be playing the Xbox or on YouTube, now focused on the next thing to do to get me ahead. Not sure if I should write, read, reflect, or add value in some way while absorbing the right material that helps me reach my full potential. What is one to do when he has yet to find his purpose? Posted on a note card in the bathroom I wrote my purpose was to prove doubters wrong. I figured since a wise man said it was important that we find our focus it’d be a good idea for me to have something on paper. In doing so I chose something that drove me since I was a teenager.
As I mentioned in a recent video on my Facebook page, “each week I will know more than I knew the week before”, I realize now I can’t hear the doubters. Their opinions are no longer valued especially ones with discouraging ideas or judgment. Sharing thinking is still a good part of growth but going to your own drum is a sign of a person who is determined. I could also still be searching or finding my way to whatever awaits. None the less, others opinions can’t affect the outcome of a victory in life. I value winning and those that win and respect those who know how to lose and bounce back. The grind of searching for something that can’t be seen but desired is a challenge but also an interesting learning experience. Is it success or eternal happiness with one’s self. The how, of achieving such, is a wonderful puzzle I’m enjoying trying to piece together.
In writing these short entries is where I find some answers. As I reflect when reading over thoughts that have just been put into words, I discover knew pieces to smaller puzzles. This one being that maybe I need to locate a new purpose or find my real purpose in wanting to grow so many branches. Adding more and more tasks to keep me active and more and more knowledge to keep me learning it’s not odd I would take a day off to let the brain rest. Then again I tried that yesterday but still ended up 80% deep into the different options of providing a future for my family. That’s what I call a Personal day from work. The really intriguing part is my brain won’t stop turning. Finding a dull moment in the day is seemingly depressing in a sense. And it’s odd because I thought I liked to just lay back and enjoy the breeze. I’m hungry for something and motivated while staying dedicated to do and be more. The next 5 years has to be different from the last and so on. I do not need the path to be clear. I just need to make sure I’m moving forward and we’ll see what happens..
---FLOETSPEAR
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